Shit!!!

Well what else can i say...... nothing .. of course..... i hate being involve in this whole shit again... and I do have a choice, but looks like I'm too coward and at the end i always give up and I let my feelings to pick the wrong way to go....

And to night here I am, waiting, expecting, wishing , dreaming, and asking my self over and over again if is worth it.....

I have set my own limitations on this and sometimes i regret it, cause i have a whole bunch of needs, all kind, but what kind of woman would i be if i let u make all the desicions ??.... One side of me keeps telling me not to give up, to fight all to the end until no choices, reasons or hopes are left..... and the other that I should value my self more and just turn and look for happiness somewhere else...

There is a constantly fight between my broken heart that doesnt want to give up and and my common sense, between the madness and the amazing love i feel, between the lack of answers and the tons of questions.... between me and his other world......